Wednesday, September 29, 2010

I'm sitting on a cloud of taco's

At least I wish I was! I would like a taco right now. I'm sitting in my art class and I'm bored already. Seriously, like we had to write a paper for this class. I got a B on it and the teacher-man says he needs to talk to me about it. And he did editing on it, I greatly dislike. This is an art class not an english class. He has no right to correct my paper. Stupid loser face!!! Honestly this class is more like a humanities class then an art class. Oh! The time is [6:17] Just so you know where I'm at in the night.

[6:18] Ughggghghghghghgh I really dislike this class. First off it's supposed to start at 6 pm he has yet to get here on time for class. He normally doesn't get here until like 6:10  or later.

[6:31] the tech troubles continue. Teacher man is not good with technology, not at all.  Ugh! My stomach is wanting food but I have no food to give it til I get home! UCK!! I need to go and bring snacks for class. That would be the smart thing to do.

[6:33] Today I got a bunch of Tsubasa manga from the library and signed up to vote! Woo! I am a grown-person!! At least in the eye's of the government I am! Not in my eyes, no not at all! I am still a small child who just happens to get to be able to do big people stuffz now too! YAY!!! I think I may start reading manga online soon. It's kinda funny, nobody really pays attention in class. We all kinda do our own thing.

[6:36] My stomach just made a funny noise......

[6:50] I really kind of dislike people right now. Like some stupid shite has happened over the last couple of days and honestly it's more then I want to deal with right now. I'm not sure people realize how much a facebook status can hurt. Like a friend of mine posted something that really hurt and I don't think she's realized how much it's hurt me. I've told her so many times that she makes me feel like a third wheel. She says she's sorry but then she goes and does it again but I keep fighting to stay in her life and everything. I've finally realized that it's not worth it. If she wants me in her life then she needs to be the one to fight for it for once. He does too, I'm so tired of fighting for it when neither one of them is trying to fight back and keep me in their lives. So thats fine, I'm done trying. If they want me then they want me, if they don't they don't. Life goes on, yea it'll hurt to know for sure that they don't care about me but I'll be better off in the long run.

[6:58] Now I'm annoyed again and hungry still and my back hurts. The girl just messaged me asking how I was and saying how much she misses me....She clearly does not understand/know that I am upset with her. Ugh and of course if I don't say anything then I'll be the bad guy who just stopped talking. Ugh. I don't know if I wanna go through with this but I can't just give in again! I have to stand up for myself! I can't be the wall flower anymore!!

[7:13] it's official I hate people. This other chick now thinks that I'm royally pissed at her just because I haven't talked to her in awhile and she won't come to me about it because I "wont give her a straight answer" Her words not mine. That really just pisses me off. I'm so sick of drama! I don't want to fucking deal with it. I've got enough going on in my life right now. I don't need your bullshite too. I really think that I'm just gonna cut everyone out and let those who are willing to fight to keep me in their lives. For once people you fight for me, show me that I mean something to you and that I'm just not something to pass the time.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

There was a storm....til I told it off!

Wow so apparently squares are art. Ugh this class is so just....MUFFIN!! Honestly! I'm typing this during class as he shows us pictures of prostitutes or at least how Picasso views them. This class is so strange!! Colescott's version of prostitutes now. Honestly this is the strangest art class that I have ever taken!!

I think I'm writing this now because this class bores me and according to my brother we don't have power at home cause of the storms that happened so I wont be able to charge my laptop

GOD DAMN MONKIES!! Stupid teacher man goes to fast for me to take notes. I'mma have to download the notes from blackboard now. Ugh! I hate downloading stuff that I don't need to. EW

Ugh anyway, I felt really pretty today which was really super nice! I love when I feel pretty!! It doesn't happen all that often.

AH! Because I'm thinking of it! I get to see Lizzie this weekend!! And possibly am staying the night!! YAY!! I don't get to see Lizz often enough! Stupid school getting in the way! I also might get to see Goat [Its a nickname] this weekend. I really hope that I do get to see her. I haven't seen her since the end of camp. And that makes me sad because we got really close this summer. Last summer we really didn't like each other but we do this year! So I MISS HER!!!

I have noticed lately that people have stopped posting things on facebook or aren't responding to my texts/messages and that worries me. I like to know that people are doing okay so it's not cool when they suddenly stop having contact with me. I get really worried. And right now there are several people who I haven't had contact with and I'm really honestly quite upset about that. THEY SHOULD TEXT/MESSGAE ME RIGHT NOW!!!

**sighs** Sorry this is another random one. I'm in a funky mood right now so my mind is in highgear and running in more directions then usual. Kinda sucks, it's giving me a headache ughhh!!!! Dislike yo!! **stomach makes a strange noise** agh!! I didn't finish my dinner cause of the storms. I got a doggy box/bag thing and drove back to the school. Then sat in an area that was mostly glass because this whole building has a lot of glass. There are no area's that aren't near glass. I got told I had to move so I went and sat in a hallway xD then I moved and sat next to a 7-up soda machine. But I had been sitting in that glass area for at least 10 minutes with the sirens blaring the whole time. Those damn things are really shrill in Pickerington!! That or there are several that are very close to the school.

Brother text me and said that we have power again. YAY!! Cause my laptop is gonna die soon!!! NOT GOOD!

Just in case you were wondering just writing this much has taken almost an hour because I'm taking notes at the same time.... at least I was. Now, not so much. ew. It's dark as hell out right now. It's 8:20pm. You know I kinda like putting the time as I type. I think it's interesting to see what I type when. I didn't do that tonight because I just didn't TT-TT

Bad Sarah **yawn** there is cashew chicken and rice sitting in my car waiting for me to eat it. Or at least finish eating it. Oh! I think we might be done for the night. Or not. He just said break time for a lil bit. DAMN!!!! I want to go home TT-TT I'm tired of listening to this man talk! Ugh!! For real. He just said ten minute break then he'll talk to nine then he'll let us go home.

WOOOO home now! Tired but of course I'm not gonna go to bed. Lol I'mma stay up and play on my comp.

Night dearies

Thursday, September 16, 2010

We will kiss in the moon light, I will never make you cry

Hello!! **waves happily** It's currently 7:52pm and my internet is being stupid so I'm typing this up in openoffice. Which is still kicking my butt TT-TT ALSO!! I was saddened to discover that I don't have a movie maker of anykind!! This means that I have to go searching and find a free one that I can download to my mac. Ugh that is effort which I dislike! Also!! I wish I had some talent at drawling. That is my goal tomorrow! To find some drawling sites and practice! I love to draw I'm just kinda crap at it. I don't think I 'm that bad at photography though which is good but speaking of I need to take some pictures sometime. I might go in the park behind my house and take some shots. Or of my cat. He's pretty!! **attacks cat in hugs** Sorry! He was sitting next to me and I couldn't help my self.

Once again though I find my self insanely bored even though I have math homework to do. I think I'll do that tomorrow or saturday. Sometime. Ahh I love the song “Lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off” by Panic at the disco. I'm currently listening to it and I'm not really sure why I love it so much but I do!! **sighs and sings in her head** My parents are in the room as I type this other wise I would totally sing out loud but the lyrics are not parent-ok!! lol I totally just made that a word-ish-ing. =]

[8:oo] I want the internet to start working again TT-TT I also wish that I could write something. Like I really want to write a story but every time I start it gets away from me and runs off into outer space. **sighs** Damn story!!! I haven't been able to write any poems lately either...Hmm I blame life. Like I've had a lot going on lately and have been dealing with crazy emotions!! College life sucks when you are living at home!

[8:o6] ;alsjfhoaf;uwenvvubeavuebr;vub;ub; Muffin Man!!! GRRAWR!!!

That is all.....

“In my need you have always been there/ He is young/ He's afraid/ Let him rest/ Bring him home!”
“He's like the son I might have now if God had granted me a son”

I love this song. Bring him Home from Les Mes. I would love to see the show sometime. The music is so beautiful! I love to sing it!! Some times I think I sound pretty good singing it.

“If I die, let me die. Let Him live! Bring him home......Bring him home....Bring him home!” GOOD SONG!!!

[8:23] Ugh internet is still being strange. I had to wash dishes, and I left itunes playing so it was like 5 songs past where I was TT-TT

“it's to soon, to soon to say goodbye. Yes Forbid me now to die! I'll try to obey” Possibly the most beautiful line ever written. I tear up every time. It's so pretty.

“Take my hand and lead me to salvation, take my love for love is ever lasting. And remember the true that once was spoken. To love another person is to see the face of god.” Ahhh so beautiful!! I love it!! It's kinda sad that when I'm upset I listen to stuff like that if I'm not listening to stuff thats horribly moody and angry like I normally do.

[8:29] Internet is back!!

[8:36] I love the numa numa song!! **dances badly** Now if I could say the words right! WAH!! My phone just went off!! That scared me!! [yes you needed to know that] It was Liz!! YAY!!! But she is all sick! Not cool!! **glomps her** Okay I think I'm done blogging for now. I might post something later tonight. So there might be another strange ramble xD Later!!!

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Insane rambling during art class

Hello my lovelies!! I'm so sorry that I haven't posted anything in the last few days. I've been busy with school and trying to find a job, but the job part is going well. I've possibly found a job with a chinese place that is like one minute from the school. No lie!! Plus the food is fantastic and cheap!! I died and went to heaven!! NOMS!! Plus I have some sweet and sour chicken left over that I will probably eat at late tonight.

Oh! I think guest speaker man is about to speak so I'mma listen to him now then I'll maybe type more. [6:17 pm]

[6:43] Coming back to this for a second. Guest man is speaking but I don't enjoy listening to his voice. I think his art is a bit pompous but I like it still. But he is a bit stuck up but I can't really talk. Okay switching back to notes.

[6:53] There is a ticking clock....I'm going to shoot it. Guest man will fall silent for a moment and no one speaks. The room falls oddly silent save for that damn ticking clock! Not even the gentle clacking my keyboard keys is enough to drown out the sound of that clock.

[6:59] Woah! What the hell happened there with that writing!! That was rather crazy! I love when I write like that. I feeel proud. Guest speaker man is still speaking, but don't worry!! I am paying attention still. He's currently talking about how he gets his style from others but doesn't think that he's that bold of an artist. Honestly I think he's rather bold but I really want some of the chicken sitting in my car. I'm kinda hoping that my car wont smell like chicken. That would kill me every time I get in the car!! YES! I do realize that this is a ramble but this is the way my mind works. It runs at a ba-jillion miles a minute and I think about many things and suddenly I've lost the ability to spell. Welll I'm spelling worse then usual. Okay switching back now.

[7:05] WoAh-MeH-gOd!!! This class is tooooooo long. There is still 2 and a half hours left. I'm really hoping that he doesn't speak the whole time. I might die. I know my comp will!

[7:15] Either the clock has stopped ticking or I've just gotten used to it.

[7:19] I think I just got used to it. I really do want some of that chicken...Hmm I need to hide the pringles somewhere so mom doesn't see them but she has nothing to do with my car so it might be all right. Speaking of car I need to clean it and stick Fai and Kuro in the window still. I'm thinking that I'm going to tape both of them to the dash board. Some where near each other, but not because Fai told me too....No.... not at all.....I have problems...I need to stop loving fictional boys. But in order to do that, real boys need to stop being such dickwads xD Oh my...I got off topic with this one. Guest man is still going strong with his speaking....There's a voodoo dancer in some of his art.....I am confuseeeeeddd!!! and really wanting that chicken... Ugh. I'm mildly fail I know. TT-TT

[7:25] Nope! The ticking is back. I heard it.

[7:31] So I am officially bored and resisting getting on Facebook. That took a lot longer then I thought that it would. So i'm kinda proud of myself!! Guest man has started sounding like a drone in my head and is starting to give me a head ache. MAJOR DISLIKE!!! Oh! I guess while i'm thinking about it. I'm really sorry that this really is just me rambling for 2ish hours!! I'm sure you have better things to do then to read me thinking about everything and nothing ['cept you Lizz-Tonks-Wiffle. I know you are laughing at me!] This also just hit two pages in openoffice word thing. =] I just got a song stuck in my head. It's a tribute to John Williams(?) I can't remember his name. But you can find it if you look up star wars tribute, the picture should be of four guys in the four corners if the screen. Good tribute thing lol. I have found so many good songs lately! It's just crazy!! Some time I will have to post a list of my itunes and of my favorite songs cuz itunes doesn't have all of my songs TT-TT Very sad thing!!!

[7:53] DUDE! I am bored and my foot is falling asleep but I can't move it because it's helping to hold my laptop up. I've got it leaning on the table. Okay just switched legs. Ow! They just turned the lights on after them being off for almost 2 hours **squints** Meh eyes!!! Ugh muffins.

[9:38] Okay!! So I'm now home and have eaten the rest of my chicken and my car did smell like sweet and sour chicken **face palm** But thats okay! long as the smell is gone by tomorrow. Oh! I might have gotten a job with that chinese place it all depends. I really hope that I have!! That would be good!!! That means money and CHINESE FOOODZZZ!!! Ummm yea I'm thinking I'mma end it here xD this is such a messed up post. I'm so sorry.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Sometimes I'm not sure what to do with myself

First off, boys suck.

Moving on!

I had my first two classes today and they weren't that bad!! I got out of one class early which was SUPER nice so I got home around 5:30ish! But tomorrow I'm gonna get home close to ten pm...

I'm sorry guys, I currently feel like crap and really don't want to write anything so tomorrow morning I'll post a proper blog about today and about not being sick.


watching robot chicken

At 8:26 in the morning. Good way to start my first day of college no? In all honestly I'm posting something cause I'm bored and I have to wait till nine to go to the library so I can turn a bunch of books in. And of course I'll go and check more out =] Ahh I love the library! ... Yes that was important for you to know. It's also important for you to know that I'm kinda hungry but I have no idea what I want and I don't have money. So no cheapy food this morning. Aw darn, Just kidding!! =]

This really is a mostly pointless blog update or whatever you wanna call it. And as I typed that I just remembered that I need to tape the pictures of Kurogane and Fai in my car <3 I have to do that before I go to school!! It's very very important that I do! And not because I love them dearly, it's cause if I don't I'll keep forgetting and the cats might rip the pictures up xD

Okay well I'm off to venture into the kitchen for food. I'll post something else later tonight.


Monday, September 6, 2010

I'ma lil teapot dancing a waltz with the toaster.

Blogging again, two days in a row. This is a record for me! And wisely I'm not typing this up at stupid o'clock! Anyway, I think today I shall talk about cake and why it's not a smart idea to smash cake into a friend's face. It's not smart because they can easily smash the remaining cake in your face which can be fun but sucks when your trying to clean your face off in a bathroom without a mirror. Yup! That's how I spent my saturday night, at a friends 18th birthday party and I learned how to play Ninja. Very fun game!! It can hurt after a while though. Hmmm I know I was going somewhere with this and now I can't remember. Thats what I get for typing this up while chatting on Facebook with people. Thats all right though.

Guys, tomorrow I start college and I'm already disliking it because I still don't have my id and I got the picture taken over two weeks ago. I might have to get it taken again tomorrow, I have yet to oder my books for class. I know two books that I need to get but the other two haven't been put up online yet so I won't know what I need til the teacher tells me. Speaking of classes, I have public speaking and some class about how to take notes tomorrow. That class should be an easy A **knocks on wood** Need to be careful about my grades! I want to transfer schools next year so I need to get FANTASTIC grades this year! It's very, very important!! Ugh being a student is no fun. I can't wait to officially be done with school forever!! That would make me beyond happy!!

I'm sort of running out of things to say...Hmm just remembered. Ihop late at night with me, Liz, Wes, and Becky is a bad idea! Strange things happen, giving us mountain dew is also a bad idea. We went right after my friend's party and we were quite loopy already so giving us sugar was just bad. Plus Liz and I saw the coloring sheets and just HAD to color them. Thankfully the waitress gave them to us, she then teased me about coloring the pumpkin red because I didn't have an orange crayon. We then got into how mixing crayon color's is an art... Yes. It really is. I've also learned that the later it is, and the more tired I am the more incorrectly I hear people. I heard some strange things, my favorite being "I'm an evil princess" I have no idea what Wes was trying to say but that's what I heard. Very crazy!!

OKay well I think I'm done for the night. So Good night all!


Because it's sometime during some day of the week.

First off! It is either stupid early in the morning or stupid late at night. Which makes me wonder what the hell I'm still doing being awake!! [It is **checks clock** 12:42 am] Oddly enough I'm not tired in the slightest so I might do something crazy like type up and actual blog message instead of a few words and pretend that it means something.

Okay! Well second off, I've been thinking about starting a singing/video group called Sarah Squared. In the beginning it was going to be me and another Sarah but she's back at school now and we can't see each other so I don't think thats gonna happen. Oh well, but I want to do it. Even if it's by myself....Er though I just remembered I need to download openoffice and I hope there is some kind of movie maker in it. I don't have anything on my mac and if I do it's winning hide and seek. Kinda annoying that my comp is kicking my butt!!! Ewwww also! While it's on my mind, I want to start writing again. I miss it, writing fanfic and such but I don't think I'm very good at it. Hmm. I've noticed that I do that. Bring my self down. I should stop that. I really should. I should also stop writing four word sentences, makes me look like I'm three or something. Failure!!

Third off! College.....UGHHHH Children. College was created to kill High School students. Seriously. You finish high school and think that your done with all of that insanity and WHAM! There's college smacking you in the face with loans, and scholarships, and promises of stealing you far away from your house and life and letting you start over. Then it comes back in a month or so and rips the rug right out from under you. Very not cool and mildly rude. Good way to break someone's neck! ALSO! Being a 17 year old and entering college sucks because you legally can't sign any contract TT^TT Yea. Mom has to sign things for me, but then I'm stuck owning Her back what ever money she paid. Very not cool. Ohhhh trying to find a job as a college student is also very hard, and stress full. **pauses** I'm starting to think that college is actually just another word for stressfull-time-ahead. I really do, it's all insane and mess of numbers and calling people to get books [[that cost an arm and leg. Books that I'll never use again]] and making sure that you picked the right classes. Oh ugh muffins!! It's all crazy, I'm not really sure why I'm doing it. Oh thats right! To get a good job later. **sighs and rolls eyes** Later needs to come faster and skip over all of this silliness.

That paragraph was getting to be to long and the radio has started distracting me. Dani California by the red hot chili pepper's is playing....Yes I do feel that is important information =p I'd also like to say that fictional boys are a large distraction when typing up a blog. Just so your aware xD Ew I was trying to stay away from my normal typing style but it's slowly starting to creep in. I'm going to blame the fictional boys and the need to sleep. Wooooah! It is now one in the morning. I think that officially makes it stupid-early-in-the-morning.... So why on Earth am I still typing? **thinks** Because I can. >__< Failure Sarah Failure. Even though this is a strange place to end. I'm going too.

Good night/morning